我很喜欢，作为stand up不是满分，但这个special也不能完全用stand up的metrics去评价，几乎是一场行为艺术了。nn但即使是行为艺术我喜欢的原因也很主观，因为这是我非常难得的可以care free的consume并且enjoy男性痛苦的时候。我自己也在思考为什么，可能是很多男性为主角的故事我都无法真的让自己沉浸在里面，there’s always gonna be a voice in the back of my head being like but how privileged must he be still，telling me这一切不过是男人与马的变种，究竟有什么好enjoy的。但因为他的痛苦太多来自父权，宗教，一切封建传统的概念本身，所以我不需要再去寻找他作为一个男性通过封建制度受益的痕迹从而discredit他的故事。and to some extent, him being gay makes him more attractive to me, as i dont have to discredit him as a person.nn后半段是听完的，没有看画面。sidenote画面也很喜欢，红色毛衣在这个lighting下create的colour scheme非常好看，很喜欢这种在方方面面都下了功夫的production。作为一个stand up special其实visual asthetics的priority应该是很低的，但他们花了心思，i really appreciate that. 总之因为没有看画面错过了他看镜头的时候，在豆瓣看到短评才又回去看了。在说到和他妈妈的关系的时候他看了两次镜头，一次是说到人一生中的关系是阶段性的，但when its ur mom，然后他看进了镜头。第二次是他说what do i want from her, i know she’ll see this. 这一次说完之后他的眼神游离了一下才看向镜头，他想说什么但最终什么都没说，然后很快移开了视线。那种无法开口的感觉，因为无法沟通，或者太过沉重，或者找不到合适的词，its so, real, and fresh, like a fresh wound thats cut open right in front of your eyes. 如果这是一个电影镜头的话那导演和演员真的都是天才，因为是真的于是更鲜血淋漓。如此vulnerable。it feels like im never gonna witness something like this again, we’re never getting something like this again.nn同时也让我意识到了我的幸运吧。他的痛苦太真实了，我几乎能感觉到那种不被无条件爱着的无力感，and it genuinely feels like the worst feeling ever. it is almost scary to think about how lucky i am to not need to feel that on a daily basis.nnoh yeh almost forgot，需要回家面对一个你知道他秘密的人的感觉也很relatable（笑）那种尴尬和不适描述的好好
Gay is the biggest reason why I mark it 5 stars. First I want to say that’s why I’m kind of prefer to make foreign friends because I could be more straight with them, and I’m not straight; I can only see people feel free to talk about everything in public and sometimes they can get the tolerance around them. Not only the criticism and sarcasm. Second thing is as a son, he did a lot for hir mom and the way he has been through, touched me a lot couse I would never do things as great as him. and his show was brilliant. It was not just a show, it was a movie try to tell us something but act as a show.
我很喜欢，作为stand up不是满分，但这个special也不能完全用stand up的metrics去评价，几乎是一场行为艺术了。nn但即使是行为艺术我喜欢的原因也很主观，因为这是我非常难得的可以care free的consume并且enjoy男性痛苦的时候。我自己也在思考为什么，可能是很多男性为主角的故事我都无法真的让自己沉浸在里面，there’s always gonna be a voice in the back of my head being like but how privileged must he be still，telling me这一切不过是男人与马的变种，究竟有什么好enjoy的。但因为他的痛苦太多来自父权，宗教，一切封建传统的概念本身，所以我不需要再去寻找他作为一个男性通过封建制度受益的痕迹从而discredit他的故事。and to some extent, him being gay makes him more attractive to me, as i dont have to discredit him as a person.nn后半段是听完的，没有看画面。sidenote画面也很喜欢，红色毛衣在这个lighting下create的colour scheme非常好看，很喜欢这种在方方面面都下了功夫的production。作为一个stand up special其实visual asthetics的priority应该是很低的，但他们花了心思，i really appreciate that. 总之因为没有看画面错过了他看镜头的时候，在豆瓣看到短评才又回去看了。在说到和他妈妈的关系的时候他看了两次镜头，一次是说到人一生中的关系是阶段性的，但when its ur mom，然后他看进了镜头。第二次是他说what do i want from her, i know she’ll see this. 这一次说完之后他的眼神游离了一下才看向镜头，他想说什么但最终什么都没说，然后很快移开了视线。那种无法开口的感觉，因为无法沟通，或者太过沉重，或者找不到合适的词，its so, real, and fresh, like a fresh wound thats cut open right in front of your eyes. 如果这是一个电影镜头的话那导演和演员真的都是天才，因为是真的于是更鲜血淋漓。如此vulnerable。it feels like im never gonna witness something like this again, we’re never getting something like this again.nn同时也让我意识到了我的幸运吧。他的痛苦太真实了，我几乎能感觉到那种不被无条件爱着的无力感，and it genuinely feels like the worst feeling ever. it is almost scary to think about how lucky i am to not need to feel that on a daily basis.nnoh yeh almost forgot，需要回家面对一个你知道他秘密的人的感觉也很relatable（笑）那种尴尬和不适描述的好好
Gay is the biggest reason why I mark it 5 stars. First I want to say that’s why I’m kind of prefer to make foreign friends because I could be more straight with them, and I’m not straight; I can only see people feel free to talk about everything in public and sometimes they can get the tolerance around them. Not only the criticism and sarcasm. Second thing is as a son, he did a lot for hir mom and the way he has been through, touched me a lot couse I would never do things as great as him. and his show was brilliant. It was not just a show, it was a movie try to tell us something but act as a show.